Something of me and of my world

27th Lesson From My Life …

Few days separate me to my 27th birth day The idea behind this list is not original, I have passed across many similar article for other writers, the difference is I am not here to motivate any one, what you are about to read is my own believes and experience, may I quoted some from other places but its all has been tested personally .. without more further .. Here you go ..

Life taught me that : 

  1. Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are a good person is like expecting a lion not to eat you just because you are a vegetarian…

  2. People used to mistake between Kindness and Weakness, so watch out…

  3. Money does bring happiness…

  4. Your vision become your reality .. make sure you have a good vision…

  5. “The past doesn’t define your future” … this is a big lie, ofcourse it does … today is the past of tomorrow, fix your present so your future could flourish, in other words .. its better to define your present as it will define your future.

  6. Your job/boss won’t take care of you when you are sick, your friends and family will, ensure to keep those who don’t care in the bottom of your list.

  7. Friends are the family that we choose to our self.. choose a good one.

  8. Most people are actually nice … but not to strangers, give others the chance to know you.

  9. Critics know how things should be .. but they don’t know how to do it.

  10. There is nothing like “constructive criticism”, haters and jealous are using it to express there feeling towered you in front of public, trust me if they love you they would simply tell you how to do things in right way.

  11. When you can give without expecting anything in return, you have mastered the art of living.

  12. The best way to be interesting is to be interested in others.

  13. It is easy to become depressed when you think that others do things that you don’t like because of you, when they’re really just doing those things because of themselves.

  14. Don’t take your self seriously, others don’t ..

  15. No love can hurt as much as the love that can never be.. And, no thoughts can hurt as much as the thoughts of a love that could have been

  16. For your own seek … learn to forgive.

  17. Changing the word is the target of all great people … since no one succeed, its better to focus on changing your self.

  18. True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

  19. Don’t forget to love yourself.

  20. “Fear knocked at the door. Faith answered. And lo, no one was there”.

  21. You don’t make mistakes .. then you are a perfect human , if you make mistakes then you are a human.

  22. A fall from the third floor hurts as much as a fall from the hundredth. If I have to fall, may it be from a high place.

  23. Here is the test to find whether your mission on earth is finished: If you’re alive, it isn’t..

  24. Giving up doesn’t always mean you are weak … sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go

  25. Burn the candle, use the nice sheet, wear the fancy lingerie, don’t save it for special occasion, today is special.

  26. What does makes the moon too beautiful is the darkness that surround it.

  27. Finally, remember there will be a day that you will turn around to find no one, so you have to be ready!

That’s it .. so what do you think .. may there is something you didn’t like or things don’t agree with .. have something to add .. why not ! … let me know in the comments.


July 27, 2009 Posted by | Personal | Leave a comment

The American Fear

Obama is an Arab! …… Everybody run for your lives!



Hollywood Have a view point



Not too much to say

July 25, 2009 Posted by | Personal | | Leave a comment

Marwa, What was her sin to be Killed ?

If you are one of my non-Arabic reader then most likely you don’t know any thing about her, well let me help you, Her name is Marwa al sherbini she is pharmacist, handball player, a mother of three years old son, a four moth pregnant wife and most important she is a Muslim women wearing headscarf, she was living in Germany for three years with her husband who is was envoy to study PHd degree in physics in one of top Germany college, in the 1st of July 09 Marwa has stabbed 18 times in front of her son, her husband the only one tries to come to her rescue her also stabbed 3 times by the same attacker, when the police finally comes they shot the husband instead of the attackers, did I mention that all that happened in the middle of a court room ..! 

That’s all what I have to say, I will leave the rest for Naseem Tarawnah from The Black Iris blog to break down this story for you

A 31-year old, headscarf-wearing Egyptian Muslim woman, Marwa Al-Sherbini, who was about four months pregnant, takes her German neighbor to court for calling her a “terrorist”. Now, in the courtroom, the neighbor, Alex W., stabs her 18 times right in front of her 3-year old son.

Her husband, a research fellow, tries to come to her rescue and ends up not only getting stabbed as well by the attacker, but is actually mistaken for the attacker and shot by the security guard.

This case was so mind-baffling when I read it a few days ago and I still haven’t been able to wrap my mind around it. Many questions and thoughts have been floating around in my head, and I hate to admit it but the most pertinent one that rests right at the foreground of my brain is based on two words: 18 times.
I am not a forensic scientist but I’ve seen enough Hollywood movies to know that stabbing someone 18 times isn’t a task that you get done in 5 or 10 seconds unless you’re the cyborg or a robot sent from the future. 18 times.

How long did it take for people in the courtroom to realize this woman was being stabbed and that someone should do something about it?

18 times.

Seriously, try stabbing the wind 18 times right now as quickly as possible. %D8%A7%D9%84%D8%AF%D9%83%D8%AA%D9%88%D8%B1%D8%A9 %D9%85%D8%B1%D9%88%D9%89 %D8%A7%D9%84%D8%B4%D8%B1%D8%A8%D9%8A%D9%86%D9%89 %D9%88%D8%B2%D9%88%D8%AC%D9%87%D8%A7 marwa el sherbini

Go ahead.

I’ll wait.

See what I’m saying?

Oh, and add to that her husband getting stabbed three times by the same guy before the tragedy came to an end (with the husband being shot).

Now I know this is a question that might seem silly or even absurd in light of this event. I know a better debate is being framed elsewhere (thanks to Egyptian bloggers). I know that a great deal of the conversation that centers around this case has been with regards to the lack of western coverage (what did they expect?) and the outrage in Egypt (what did they expect?) and the outrage to come from the perhaps various parts of the Muslim world (what did they expect?) or the rising Islamophobia in the West (what did they expect?), but while all these conversations are valid and have their own time and context to consider, for some reason, I remain mesmerized by this number: 18.

18 times.

Strictly on a human level, how long does it take for someone to react. To move. To say “stop”. To say “enough”. Strictly on a human level. No religion. No gender. Just a human being watching one human being slaughtered by another.

How long does it take?

How does that number reach 18?

See, this is what’s been getting to me lately. In my head, this number, 18, rings incredibly significant. I recognize that there’s evil in this world, and that there always will be. There are breaking limits in this world and I recognize that too. There are numbers that weigh heavy on the human soul, and every one has one. It’s unmistakable. It’s undeniable. Often times we have absolutely no control over them and we relieve ourselves of any responsibilities. Like Tolstoy would put it, we pretend to simply be kings who are slaves to the whims of history. But often times, we do.

Often times, and not all the time, but some of the time, we do.5

Often times these things happen right in front of us.

On our watch.

On our watch, these numbers take shape.

For Marwa Al-Sherbini that magical number was eighteen. 

But what’s the body count in Iraq today?

What about the West Bank or Gaza?

What about in Darfur?

What’s their magic number? What’s their breaking limit? 

At what point do we say “enough”?

More importantly.

At what point will we mean it? “

I don’t think there is something remain for me to say, bellow is a photo of her funeral back home in Egypt, the one that turned to a public demonstration and away for expression the angry feeling toward racism in general.

Below is a photo album from her funeral (press on the pictures to enlarge)


July 13, 2009 Posted by | Personal | Leave a comment

Why Muslims Scarf is Provocative

PS; This is a translation of an article written by Maram Maccauy, she is a Saudi girl studding for PHD degree in computer science in UK

It was a hard day few weeks ago, were I suppose to discuss my final research as graduation requirement, the effort of the past few years was depending on what will happen in the few hours that morning, and unlike expectation, everything goes fine, there were some rough question and others went so easy, over all the scientific discussion was in a high level and exactly as I like it to be.

Later I must spend some time with the internal examiner of my university, to tell me about the suggested modification on my research before I print the final copy that will be registered, it was the end of a long day and I was so exhausted, but for my surprise I found my self in another kind of test …!

The examiner start talking about his Muslims students, and mentioned his previous girl student that came from Arabian Gulf, and she was a daughter of a famous man there, then he smiled archly and said “when they visit me they drink the wine they claim to be prohibited in your religions!”, it was clear to me that this man want to open a dissection, this is way he started with this sentence.

I was so exhausted from the early discussion that I have early morning and didn’t want to engage in any another talk I was about to just shut up and not comment on his note, but it was my religion what this man tray to insult and if there something to say I must say it now.

The man start attacking the three religions(Christianity , Islam and Judaism), and he consider them (the three profits of that religions) just a smart men managed to let people follow them and to believe in their message despite of all its contradictions, and God simply doesn’t exist, and Darwin theory explain every things, and there is no purpose for our life or death, and as a scientist he just believes in what does science proves, then he asked me why should I wear the scarf while the men doesn’t. ?

I asked him quietly: why does my scarf bother you since it doesn’t bother me? Reply categorically: “because it’s not a Britain, not Western” as if he wants to say “it’s un civilized” and I said: so you think that the civilization is what the western world is? and everything else is simply not civilized and you shouldn’t learn from it, excuse me sir (I said) one of the things that I will take out from my study here is that I should take an in-depth look to all opinions before I form my own. Nobody can claim he has all the answers, and if I would consider your way of judging things then I should refuse everything I see here as its simply not Islamic or Saudi thing, and of course then I will be described as extremist or terrorist.

The professor then change the subject little bit and said let’s suppose there is a God, it will be ridicules from him to control what we eat and drink and manage all our action, this is interference with our personal freedom, can’t you see how religions are used to  control people ? And how the politicians used religion to give authority to their regimes? And how men dominate women’s?

And I answered: if it’s about how politicians and how some people used the religions for their narrow interest then this is something we can agreed on and its undeniable, neither in the past or at the present, but let’s agree that this is not an issue in the religions itself, it’s all about how people can use even the most beautiful things in the wrong way.

And about personal freedom, here we can see the difference between the Islam and the western culture, in the western culture the individual freedom is respected to the ultimate limit, even if its goanna to harm the society, sometimes its sacrifice the society just to respect the individual interest, while in Islam its give the ultimate care to the family and so to the community which is the base of any civilization, for example you drink but you don’t drunk because you are a university professor and a mature man who can control his action, but we all know that the society we are living in are suffering from the over drinking issue to the degree that it could shock the foundation of our society, care accident, Raping, family violence and much more incident we hear about are in most cases happen due to drunk or drug issues, and so just because someone want to enjoy his drinking we are all suffering, the same things applies on sexual relation outside the marriage institute, while its allowable hear as along its just please the two engaged party, in the other side its produce children most likely will end in a social care center, or living without mother or father in the very best cases, and yes the government pay very well for those teenagers moms, yet the result are not as good as it need to be, the child deserve to live a normal life with both mother and father and the money alone could not provide the right environment for raising a good man, as a result we can see the boys street gangs spreading across UK, if this is not enough you can have a look to any prison and check the background of the criminals there.. you will find that most of them are coming from a breaking families that also knowing as a single mom family, so does that tell you any thing, all that happen because one man and girl didn’t engage in the right way, its become normally to find a single mom with four children each one of them have a different color and shape, the ultimate freedom is a delusion, we should have a minimum constraint so the life could go in the right way.

At that point I felt he start thinking of what I said, but he said again that he did read all the three religions and doesn’t find what he is looking for, I am not an absolute believer neither infidel (he said), but I don’t find the idea of a God is so convincing, but I still keep it in my consideration, I commented that as long you don’t look in these religions without previous judgment it goanna to be very hard for you to find anything, if you tried to be more objective and used your professional scientific principle to help you find the truth instead of looking on gaps or mistakes in what you see then you may reach to something.

And hear I really needed to go, the professor thanks me and told me to come at any time to talk about my research, and he was happy with our discussion

In another day I was taking launch with my girl friend “Eva”, given that she is a Christian and a secular, I asked her why I keep getting such question from my men collogues? And why that examiner behaves with me like that and didn’t do the same with other Muslims students?

She smiled and said, “My dear, because you are representing all what could confutes his own theory, Maram remember that for a long years the western world was looking to the scarf and the women who wearing it with inferiority, they claim that the scurf is nothing but a tool for men to dominate women’s, but today the new generation of Muslims women in the west are educated, smart and confident of their self, and hear its where become too dangerous!  the fact of you being a Muslim girls wearing a scurf and studying a major that even the girls in UK don’t dare to study, and more you are applying for PhD degree on it, is simply denying all the theory they believes in and promote for centuries, and sitting in the exam room and discussion your letter with a top class professor in UK in something so provocative and another prove that your scurf doesn’t prevent you from being what you are today, and so he become interesting to know how educated girl like you accept to be a salve (by wearing scurf) even when you far a way from home “

When I thought of what she said I understand why the Muslims scurf become a global issue and bring all that attention and concern from others, and why France get too extreme to the degree that its banned the scurf in all their school and throw a way all what they repeatedly saying about (personal freedom)

To those who keep marking Islam with the enclosed on it self religion, and in other side they complementing the west, I say , can you please be fair and admit that every methodology are afraid from what ever could deny its fact ? or any thing could possibly reveals its issues..


July 13, 2009 Posted by | Personal | Leave a comment

Please Don’t hit me

pppIt’s all started when I was 7 years old, I still remember the details of that incident as if it happened yesterday, back in the elementary school square we were happy at the end of another long day … playing and running after each other … waiting for our parent to come and take us home, there were “Ahmed” trying to wear his bag very fast so the supervisor of the orphans center “who was staring at him with Frown look on his face” don’t get angry, and since Ahmed was holding in his hand a small piece of ice-cream that was about to fall from his hand while he was trying to carry his heavy bag .. he asked the supervisor with a shy voice “could you sir hold the ice-cream for me just while I take the bag?” … and it was like a Satan unleashed from his cage, and the supervisor attacked the boy and start hitting (Ahmad) with a long Stick he was holding in his hand and yelling on him “do you think I am working for you, you son of bitch!!” Ahmad start apologizing and bagging the supervisor to stop hitting him, I remember I was standing there frozen and checked with what I see, for a moment he looked at me, I swear he was telling please help me … that scene has engraved in my memory for ever … as the first ugly face of the human Injustice that witnessed by the little boy I was back then.

That day I return sad to home and forgiven Ahamd and all other orphans who were living in the social care center and studying with us, forgive what they did to me and understand finally why was my father refuse to provide any complaint when I was return crying from school because they hit me or take my money or anything of my small things, my dad keep saying they don’t enjoy the family love and care and its normal for them to behave like that, of course at that time I couldn’t understand what does my father talking about and thought he just doesn’t care about me ! .. After this incident I did …

This incident stayed inside me for a long years and I was always trying to avoid talking or writing about it, because its bring to me a bad memory from side and from other side its make me so angry of myself, that day I was there and didn’t do anything.. I didn’t go and tell the rest of teachers or my parents, I even didn’t go to ask Ahmad about how he is doing after that … like everybody I just stood there … watching , if it’s because I was a little boy back then , so what the excuse of the others ?, what happened that day wasn’t a single and isolated accident, it was fixed pattern of horrible treatment that was practiced by all social worker and supervisor in the orphans care center, supported by the common culture that said they are just a sort of foundling children with unknown belongs who comes as a result of a prohibited relation, although the school teachers were not agreed with what was happening but they did nothing even other student parents were knowing what was happening there, and it was a clear from their bad performance in school that they do suffer emotionally from such un humanly treatment, that sadness and anger was exploding from those kids as a hostility and problems in their behavior .. Everybody known … but nobody did anything!

After 21 years from that incident I watched a movie for a supervisor in one of the orphan’s children center hitting a small little girl with a long stick for nothing just because she stood in the main door watching people walking on the street..! More than 21 years separate between the old incident and the one of this girl … the faces has changed … but the treatment is the same, unjustified hitting for a small baby that doesn’t have family or anybody to help her, thanks god there is a lot of phones with camera this days that could transfers such scenes for us to see a day life of an orphan girl in our great country.

This time I decided that I shouldn’t keep watching, I am not that powerless small boy any more, this is not an excuse any more… never been

So I am asking you and with you … what will happen if your kids one day needs to live there, would you rest in peace, who is hiring those people, why our government doesn’t act boldly against this, what happened with those kids is a crime, no child in the world deserve such treatment, those is our kids, what the value of our achievement in life if we failed even to protect our babies


Ps, this is a translation of the original post in Arabic and you can find the original hear

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July 5, 2009 Posted by | Uncategorized | Leave a comment